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The Doldrums
Dec. 3rd, 2014 06:50 pmWith the big blow up between me and Val that ended our friendship, the end of NaNoWriMo, and then finishing my last fic for NaNo, I am actually very bored. :( I did some tagging with Kay, and Sara earlier. But I am very displeased with my Farkle right now. It might come back, after I watch more of the show again. I keep hoping.
He wasn't in the episode much last week, so that was a disappointment for me. This week is the Christmas episode, and Shawn Hunter, and Cory's parents are supposed to guest start. I'm kinda hoping that Minkus makes another appearance with Farkle, or something. I know that Janitor Harley won't, but having Minkus back...would be awesome.
I can't wait to do more tagging.
I'm excited about this new fic that is brewing in my head. I don't know. I need to develop my Shadowhunter!Simon muse more. Maybe some more private RPing with myself will help? I'm banking on that. I am actually recycling a bit of plot from Val because I'm not ready to let the plot go. It was my plot before Val, and it will be my plot long after. And I have other plots, too that never got around to being fully developed. :( So maybe now I will try and refocus on those? Maybe?
I'm already able to talk more about TMI. I think that night it was just a shock that all I wanted was ot get out. And maybe that's what I needed to do. To get away. And maybe my Mortal Instruments muses were just prodding me more to get rid of Val. Muses, I've always believed, work in ways you don't always understand. Simon, Jace, and Alec, and especially Magnus have always been very protective of me, and my health. I guess maybe that night that Magnus had had enough, and decided that one way or another, she was gone. I'm not saying THEY are the sole reason that I dropped her. The way she reacted to everything definitely is the reason I left. I had had enough. To say that I haven't been relieved the last two days... would be a lie.
There are so many things I can do now without her constantly wanting my attention, or making me feel guilty about wanting to be away from the PC. Of course I haven't actually taken the leave away from the PC yet, but I'm sure with my new tech toy coming, I probably will. LOL.
Oh! I haven't told you guys about the new toy yet! This thing is called a Flash Pad. I ordered it from QVC. It is a touch pad gaming console that has 12 games on it that will be good for my dexterity, hand/eye coordination, and memory. These are all things I struggle with every day because of my Cerebral Palsy, and they looked addictive as hell. I can't wait! So I am going to put my triple A batteries on the charger this coming Tuesday and let them charge overnight. My Flash Pad Air is due to show up this coming Wednesday.
You guys have been amazing for being there for me, and I really appreciate it so much. <3
He wasn't in the episode much last week, so that was a disappointment for me. This week is the Christmas episode, and Shawn Hunter, and Cory's parents are supposed to guest start. I'm kinda hoping that Minkus makes another appearance with Farkle, or something. I know that Janitor Harley won't, but having Minkus back...would be awesome.
I can't wait to do more tagging.
I'm excited about this new fic that is brewing in my head. I don't know. I need to develop my Shadowhunter!Simon muse more. Maybe some more private RPing with myself will help? I'm banking on that. I am actually recycling a bit of plot from Val because I'm not ready to let the plot go. It was my plot before Val, and it will be my plot long after. And I have other plots, too that never got around to being fully developed. :( So maybe now I will try and refocus on those? Maybe?
I'm already able to talk more about TMI. I think that night it was just a shock that all I wanted was ot get out. And maybe that's what I needed to do. To get away. And maybe my Mortal Instruments muses were just prodding me more to get rid of Val. Muses, I've always believed, work in ways you don't always understand. Simon, Jace, and Alec, and especially Magnus have always been very protective of me, and my health. I guess maybe that night that Magnus had had enough, and decided that one way or another, she was gone. I'm not saying THEY are the sole reason that I dropped her. The way she reacted to everything definitely is the reason I left. I had had enough. To say that I haven't been relieved the last two days... would be a lie.
There are so many things I can do now without her constantly wanting my attention, or making me feel guilty about wanting to be away from the PC. Of course I haven't actually taken the leave away from the PC yet, but I'm sure with my new tech toy coming, I probably will. LOL.
Oh! I haven't told you guys about the new toy yet! This thing is called a Flash Pad. I ordered it from QVC. It is a touch pad gaming console that has 12 games on it that will be good for my dexterity, hand/eye coordination, and memory. These are all things I struggle with every day because of my Cerebral Palsy, and they looked addictive as hell. I can't wait! So I am going to put my triple A batteries on the charger this coming Tuesday and let them charge overnight. My Flash Pad Air is due to show up this coming Wednesday.
You guys have been amazing for being there for me, and I really appreciate it so much. <3
