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So I haven't really talked publicly about this yet. A few of you guys know about the development with my left wrist. Some of you don't. So I'm going to explain what's actually going on. It seems as though I have not only got carpal tunnel syndrome; I also have cubital tunnel syndrome, which has something to do with the ulna. Basically, there is another tunnel on the other side that runs along the side where the funny bone is located near the elbow.

This is causing me a lot of pain, especially at night. It doesn't matter how much or how little typing I do, because if my elbow is bent, then the aggravation starts. My Mom is worried about it because we know that surgery probably won't fix the problem because of the tightness in my muscles due to the cerebral palsy. So of course now I have to add this to list of my never-ending issues. I'm basically living on an ice pack every twenty minutes.

What does this actually mean? It doesn't really effect my activities online unless it really flares up. On the days that it does it means less socializing online, less RPGing via journals, and less writing. I can live without the RPGing, and the socializing, but when it effects my writing... that's where I get really upset. Not that I don't love you awesome people. You're my family, and I need you guys around whether by IM, Plurk, or text if we have each other's numbers. But writing... if you've known me long enough...writing is my escape from the world, and if I can't do it...well, I'm really not a happy person.

It's also effecting my grip on things, so when I try to do things in the kitchen, or anything like that, I'm dropping things. I've been having trouble holding Bandit, too, which is really bad because he's supposed to be my support animal. And I'm supposed to be able to hold him and pet him. He comforts me like no other human being can. I don't really understand how that works. But when I'm with him, I feel like there is nothing wrong. So not being able to really cuddle him properly is upsetting, as well.

If things work out for March, I am going to have to buy myself an ice pack to take to New York with me because I know I will need it. I've been having to get up and ice my wrist in the middle of night for the last three nights, and it's really aggravating. I'm sure Lexi will understand this need. I'm just really excited to actually be going so I can visit my friends back in Spencer. I miss all of them. :(

I can't wait, too, to see my baby girl, and Licker. I miss them both so much. I mean, I loved Honey, Riku, and Mara, but Amu and Licker were my babies. It's going to be hard to leave Amu a second time, but I know she's being taken care of, Lexi tells me that on a regular basis. But I socialized all of these babies, and I miss them. I hope they remember me.... Lexi says Licker seems to remember me...when he hears me on the phone.

Anyway, that's what's been going on with me. My wrist has been bad for the last while, and it's worse now with the colder weather. But it still is annoying. I miss being able to sleep through the night. :(
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So I haven't been updating here a lot, and I apologize. I have been sucked into the world of Tumblr, and also in the world Pokemon Y, which I got from Lexi for Christmas. I love this game so much. It's interesting because I am not used to Pokemon games having such a hold on me.

I've been spending a lot of time with Bandit lately. When Sara and Lexi left, I started playing with him more, and letting him out of his cage while I was in the room. I'm trying to get used to having him around while I have drinks and food around because he needs to learn to co-exist with his mommy. Bandit, in turn, has become so snuggly and kissy. He always gives me kisses, but Bandit has gotten even more affectionate. I am chalking this up to the fact I'm letting him out more, and giving him more attention. He loves his Mommy, that's all I know, and that is really all that matters.

I've been re-energizing myself as a writer, by doing some reading. I want to work on my Dystopian again, and get a full draft finished. I refuse to give up on it, and the characters refuse to leave my head. >.> I wish I could find a way to make myself stick with a single manuscript even when I am getting frustrated with it. I didn't actually have this problem with The Borderling Chronicles books because I always had an ending in mind, so this is so frustrating. I'll probably go into more detail about this on my Tumblr. I am trying to be more author-centric there even through all my ferret postings and things. I really very desperately need to be posting on my Facebook page every day (My author page, not my personal page).

Well, that's all I've really got right now. Sorry this is so short. I'll talk to you guys in a few days if not sooner. You can also check out my Tumblr for many different things.

Trivia: Bandit's original name was Pantalaimon "Pan" Durm, named after Lyra Belacqua's daemon in His Dark Materials book trilogy.
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So as many of you know, yesterday was my birthday, and even though I turned 34, I still celebrated as if I was 21. LOL. I spent my day at Arundel Mills, a mall that is 30 minutes away from the house, and a treat when I go, so I only do it once a year, and usually it falls on my b-day.

So everything went smoothly as far as getting there. There was an air of disappointment once we hit the Disney Store, and things seemed to go downhill from there. The thing is, there was no Big Hero 6 merchandise. I mean, they had Fred in his dragon superhero form as a plushie, and they had a plushie of Baymax in his armor, but I wanted a regular Baymax plushie, and they didn't have any, nor did they have any of the smaller action figures.

The kicker was they had a plethora of Frozen merchandise. Even after Christmas it was fully stocked up. I was really disappointed, and honestly, it's made me kind of bitter towards Frozen for the moment. I'm sure that will pass, becuase I do like the story. (and I can't pass up an opportunity to listen to "Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?" even I want to!)

I honestly don't understand why Disney isn't giving Big Hero 6 the due attention it deserves. It's crazy, really. I get that Frozen is big. It will probably be big for a long time yet. Just like Hannah Montana and High School Musical were. But I don't think Disney is being fair. Yes, keep selling the Frozen merchandise, but don't snub the movie you worked so hard to produce and bring to the big screen, and don't snub the people who went to see it, either. The people who want to buy the merchandise, and the people who would go more than once to the same movie (which I fully intend to do).

That aside, things continued to go downhill once I go to Dave and Busters. Now, by this point, I was already pretty annoyed, and upset because not only did Disney Store not have Big Hero 6, but FYE was completely sold out of any Baymax plushies and weren't restocking (yes, I asked, just for my own reference). And tons of Frozen merchandise abounded. So when I got to Dave and Busters and found out that instead of the 3 hours I had allotted for dinner and gaming was to be cut down to an hour and a half because, LOL, freakin' winter weather advisory and freezing over!, I was beyond pissed.

To add to my bad mood, there was a mess of confusion about the bill that we did incur, and the staff was way less than courteous to us. They did not get a tip. Period. >.< Screw that. I was pissed.

The day did wind up salvaged; however, by winning over 3k tickets and being able to splurge on Pixie Stix and Sweet Tarts. My two favorite candies in the world. I also got myself a new tumbler to drink out of since Mom had been borrowing my other one. I also got myself a new Grumpy Cat plushie, and Sara bought me some cotton candy. Lexi got me a Mr. Goodbar and a Hershey bar(but that was more for my hellweek than my birthday).

Some other things that I got for my birthday were two wrist bands from Sara from Ouran High School Host Club, a wallpaper from Kay with Baymax and Hiro doing the fist bump (if you haven't seen the movie, that probably isn't going to make any sense to you guys, but it's my favorite part of the movie. Well, one of my favorite scenes at any rate), and 100.00 from Mommy and Daddy to spend anyway I choose. Which is awesome. Cause I can still order from Amazon if today's plans fail.

Even though I didn't end up getting what I went to the mall to get, I am still pretty happy with how yesterday went. I got a bit bratty towards the end, but I'm glad my friends who've known me for a while could understand why I was that way. It was a great b-day, and I am looking forward to a whole new year of life.

Trivia: My favorite animated Disney movie is Lilo and Stitch. My favorite animated movie of all time is The Secret of Nimh.
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So the last couple of days have been decent, minus a few hiccups in communication, but that was mostly minor. I don't really want to talk about it now though because it was resolved. Instead, I'm going to talk about gaming! Yes. Gaming. <3

For Christmas, Sara and Lexi have been fueling me for what I hope is an awesome gaming year. First with Pokemon Y, and then with Sara helping me buy Vanellope and Wreck It Ralph combo pack for my new game obsession, Disney Infinity!

Okay, first. Disney Infinity for the 3DS plays a LOT differently from the other versions. I don't know why, and I don't want to dwell on what it doesn't have. But I will say that i like it a hell of a lot more than I liked Mario Party. I hated that game, although I can't pin point one exact reason why. Lets just say, this game is a lot more fun, and I feel more comfortable with the characters. Though really that's a moot point because I was familiar with the characters in the one Mario Party game I ever played. I don't know why, but I got seriously confused playing it, and it turned me off of party games. But Disney Infinity....it's different, and I love it so much. <3

I also got Pokemon Y from Lexi. Everyone...well, most people, may know my reputation with Pokemon. This game may be changing all of that. I am in love with it. I beat my first Gym Leader EVER . And despite some navigational issues, I am still finding it much more enjoyable than I did previous games. I'm not sure why. But yay! <3

Wednesday we're going to the big mall, Arundel Mills. This mall is huge and has a lot of awesome stores. But we're mainly going for Dave and Busters and (for me) the Disney store. Not sure what else will be there.

Oh, and I also bought a Build-A-Bear. It's birthday tradition now. This one is rainbow colored, and I named her Lisa Frank Riley. I will try and post a picture of her so that you guys can see her! She's soft, and cuddly. Lexi got a Hello Kitty and named her Kathy after her late mother. I had a mini-breakdown over things regarding that. I'm not sure why, exactly because Lexi held it together better than I did. >.> THE HELL, self?

Also, in vein of writing for the Robas so much lately, I had a BAAAAD craving for Cotton Candy, and there happened to be a fresh cotton candy vendor at Towson Mall yesterday so I got some. My Tori muse was a bit indignant, and I explained that while she has a lot of my characteristics, I am not immune to a sweet tooth, and come on, Tori, really? Don't tell me you've never nibbled Andrew's cotton candy. I happen to know better!

Speaking of the Robas... strugglign to focus on the final fic now that Sara and Lexi are here. I will try and finish that after they go home. If I can tear myself away from my 3DS long enough, LOL. I'm kinda really involved in my gaming right now, which is amazing! And I'm not complaining about that! Lexi tends to bring it out of me. >.>

Trivia: While Tori works at the carnival, she actually does not prefer that type of food. The summer before Espa went to college, they finally pooled resources and got a chicken cart and now she is working on even more healthier options for those who want them. (PS: Sometimes she nips off of Andrew's cotton candy just to take the edge off her sweet tooth)
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I'm not going to lie I Really miss the Supernatural fandom. Now everyone wants to do Superwholock, which I really do not understand, and in all honesty, I'm afraid that The Librarians are going to follow suit in some way if it takes off. I don't have a problem mixing fandoms, but I Don't want it become a regular thing because I want to enjoy each fandom separately, and occasionally have "crossover" type things happen. I can totally see The Librarians encountering an ancient artifact that allows them to cross dimensions. Hell, the branch of the Library they work out of is basically a portal, and a door can be opened to anywhereville. So it wouldn't be unheard of for them to run into Dean and Sam or something. But it doesn't ahve to be all the time. I can actually see a Doctor Who crossover too. But I am so hoping people don't make that the only way they'll play it.

But I could be jumping the gun, since it seems a lot of my friends don't watch it yet. I could, very well, end up being alone in this fandom, just like a whole bunch of my other ones.

But yes, I got involved in Supernatural again because one of my Christmas presents from Daniel was Supernatural Season 7. I have watched Season 7, but I am actually considering watching them all again. From the beginning. But I want to catch up first, and follow it all the way to the end, and then do a mega marathon.

I have missed Dean and Sam to bits. Heh. Can't wait to get back into the game.

Trivia: For a long time after I got into Supernatural, I wore rock salt around my neck. (My Sam muse was very proud.)
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So last night I wrote about the gift I knew I was getting. This morning, I'd like to first and foremost wish everyone a Merry Christmas! This year is turning out to be not so bad after all. But first, lets talk about the things that happened after the presents.

Daniel went out. Yes, that's right. He went out on a night that is purely meant for the family. But! His car went up on his way home. Which means that he had to abandon it near his friend's house. He's okay though, which is good. He more than made up for the going out thing by actually inviting me to try a new show with him.

We watched two episodes of American Horror Story: Coven (which is Season 3 of the show). I am seriously hooked now. Thankfully I had enough sense to go to bed. Today is going to be fairly busy. But I couldn't get over it. Normally, he doesn't ask me to do anything with him, but last night... I was so happy. I mean, I guess I would've been even more ecstatic if he had put Bandit's cage together, but I'll take what I can get. I really enjoyed the quality time with him yesterday, to be honest.

This morning, we put the cage together right away, and Bandit seems to be enjoying the room he now has to run around. He does seem a bit freaked out by the large size! Haha. But I didn't notice how big my furbaby was getting!! He is LONG. He is definitely no longer a baby. He's going to be 2 in February, I think. (Why do all my pets end up with February birthidays...??) But I am going to be posting pictures of everything Christmas sometime this week. Belated, yes, but that's me! LOL.

Okay, I am off to listen to a Christmas present from my friend Kay. She sent me two Fall Out Boy CDs (for download) so now I don't have to listen to the same two songs of theirs over and over. LOL.
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This time last year was fairly quiet. But this year, it's kinda bittersweet. I know that my best friend Lexi will be without her mother, and even though I had stopped calling on Christmas morning because I never knew what they were doing at any one time.

Today, though, the family will be able to celebrate with the knowledge that the monster behind the tragedy is being held accountable for his actions. The sentencing isn't until March, but I am satisfied knowing that he will be on House arrest until then, and that he has a $5,000 bond, too. I'll take that. It's something.

Tonight the family is going to exchange gifts. We won't have much. In fact, Bandit actually got the gift instead of me. He is getting a large, 3-story ferret cage. I am glad he is getting this because he actually outgrew his other one last year, and I could not get 100.00 together in one sitting. :( So Mommy and Daddy C bought him one for me. I am so happy. I don't mind giving him my gift this year. He has earned it.

Daniel is actually awake, and spending time with people in the family today. This is also a great Christmas gift for me. <3 I'm excited that he is. I do know what he physically bought me, but I'm not upset about being spoiled. I won't reveal it here until I actually get it, but it is something I asked him for last year that I didn't get. But then again last year's Christmas was kinda sucky on all accounts, the family time notwithstanding.

This year is sure to be much better all around. Mom and Daddy C are pretty much out of the hole financially, and I was able to shop for everyone that I wanted to shop for. And plus, next Tuesday, Lexi and Sara will be here, and that makes me very happy! <3


Dec. 23rd, 2014 10:38 am
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So New Year's Eve (aka next Wednesday!) my adoptive sis and my friend Sara are coming to visit in time for my b-day! I have massive plans for that! Like, OMG, we're gonna party like crazy on the anniversary of Mama Kat's death. It will be a celebration of her life, and her legacy. That's what I want it to be, mostly. I have Patrick and April lined up to come down here and party with us!

The following Wednesday is my birthday, and I have plans for that, too. Free Birthday at Medieval Times. Then some Dave and Busters. And I refuse to forget about getting Disney Infinity. That's going to be my big thing that day. I can't wait to have fun with that. I just need to stay out of the Lego Store while I'm there becuase I don't have room for those, even if I wanted one. And currently, I do not.

Oh, and Build a Bear. I am going to Build A Bear. I need to see what new creation I can find to add to my collection. Mimzy and I have had a good run. But now I need a new soft one to sleep with. I am thinking of trying to find a cat that can represent one of the felines I've lost in my life time. I really miss a cat to snuggle with. :(

This reminds me. I need to go out and have a word with Murphy before Christmas. He is probably missing me at his grave site. But I can't do it as much anymore. It's just too cold! And also, I'm pretty sure my brother and his friends have been screwing around back there, and probably have defiled his grave. I need to go and make sure this not the case.

My plans to finish books before people get here is not going over very well. Yay. >.< I'm trying, I just can't find the focus. Which really is irritating. Cause I want to finish the Legend trilogy, and finish The Maze Runner series. >.> I've got The Death Cure, and The Kill Order to read yet for that one. And for The Legend trilogy, i have Prodigy and Champion to read. Ugh. So many. And April is lending me a set of books. >.>

Well. I have cookie batters to make. I'll see you guys later. -hugs-
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So I haven't written a real entry in here in ages, and I'm sorry about that. I mostly don't do writing when all I'm going to do is whine about personal stuff. But I need some where to put some of this pent up stress, so here it goes.

I am greatly worried about my brother Daniel. He has been living with "depression" for almost 2 months. And I put it in quotes because I'm honestly not sure if he's truly depressed or using it as a cover to be allowed to sleep all day knowing that Daddy C won't push him for fear of driving him to suicide. But either way. Things are not right with this boy (yes, boy, even though he is 20). He's staying up all night, sleeping all day, and putting his family second yet again. It's to the point Mom doesn't even want to give him money for Christmas shopping, because she's afraid he'll spend it on Weed.

Yes that is something he does. He has gotten pretty bad about it ever since Cellular Sales let him go over a technicality. He'll be back there again in April, but that's a long time not to do anything. -sigh- I just don't really know what to do, or if I can really do anything, to be honest.

All I know is it is putting a strain on Mom and Cal's marriage, and that's making me feel anxious, and I don't do good with anxiety. And at least I've gotten to the point where I'm not wanting to throw up every time things get tense. (Thank you, Remeron!) But I just... this is the freakin' holidays! Things shouldn't be this intense, and strained right now. Or ever, but especially not right now.

Not to mention, the trial is going on for the accident that took my second mother away from last year, so I'm stressing about that, and trying to hold it together for Lexi, and that family. I can't be strong for both families, though, and eventually, I am expecting a breakdown. If I don't get it, then I will thank my medicine some more, because it really has helped a lot.

The holidays are depressing for me sometimes now because of the losses I've suffered. My grandparents are all gone, I lost my best best friend almost 2 years ago (my cat, Murphy. And yes even though he is "just an animal" he really was my baby, and I loved him dearly. )And now Mama Kat is gone, too, and it just feels like the loss is never ending.

If I could ever figure out how to put pictures in this thing, I would put some of hte ones of Baymax I have been drawing. He just needs to be experienced by anyone who is suffering or in pain. That kind of pain is really hard to come to terms with. Baymax does a great job of healing Hiro in the movie Big Hero 6. I just want to snuggle him dearly.
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With the big blow up between me and Val that ended our friendship, the end of NaNoWriMo, and then finishing my last fic for NaNo, I am actually very bored. :( I did some tagging with Kay, and Sara earlier. But I am very displeased with my Farkle right now. It might come back, after I watch more of the show again. I keep hoping.

He wasn't in the episode much last week, so that was a disappointment for me. This week is the Christmas episode, and Shawn Hunter, and Cory's parents are supposed to guest start. I'm kinda hoping that Minkus makes another appearance with Farkle, or something. I know that Janitor Harley won't, but having Minkus back...would be awesome.

I can't wait to do more tagging.

I'm excited about this new fic that is brewing in my head. I don't know. I need to develop my Shadowhunter!Simon muse more. Maybe some more private RPing with myself will help? I'm banking on that. I am actually recycling a bit of plot from Val because I'm not ready to let the plot go. It was my plot before Val, and it will be my plot long after. And I have other plots, too that never got around to being fully developed. :( So maybe now I will try and refocus on those? Maybe?

I'm already able to talk more about TMI. I think that night it was just a shock that all I wanted was ot get out. And maybe that's what I needed to do. To get away. And maybe my Mortal Instruments muses were just prodding me more to get rid of Val. Muses, I've always believed, work in ways you don't always understand. Simon, Jace, and Alec, and especially Magnus have always been very protective of me, and my health. I guess maybe that night that Magnus had had enough, and decided that one way or another, she was gone. I'm not saying THEY are the sole reason that I dropped her. The way she reacted to everything definitely is the reason I left. I had had enough. To say that I haven't been relieved the last two days... would be a lie.

There are so many things I can do now without her constantly wanting my attention, or making me feel guilty about wanting to be away from the PC. Of course I haven't actually taken the leave away from the PC yet, but I'm sure with my new tech toy coming, I probably will. LOL.

Oh! I haven't told you guys about the new toy yet! This thing is called a Flash Pad. I ordered it from QVC. It is a touch pad gaming console that has 12 games on it that will be good for my dexterity, hand/eye coordination, and memory. These are all things I struggle with every day because of my Cerebral Palsy, and they looked addictive as hell. I can't wait! So I am going to put my triple A batteries on the charger this coming Tuesday and let them charge overnight. My Flash Pad Air is due to show up this coming Wednesday.

You guys have been amazing for being there for me, and I really appreciate it so much. <3
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So tonight I made it my mission to wrap up the fourth fanfic from NaNoWriMo. And I did it. There were some great scenes in the epilogue, and honestly, I liked them a lot more than the rest of the story! LOL

I had a hard time writing the final scene of the story though because I'm not sure what I'm doing after this. I know I am going to write the wedding story eventually because everyone that has followed me with the four fanfic I wrote for November are now shipping Christien and Victoria, and so are asking for that story. I just don't think the whole story can be the wedding, so now I'm going to let that story brew and maybe do some reading.

I cant' bring myself to read The Bane Chronicles now. In fact, after last night, I am completely turned off by the Mortal Instruments right now. I am sure that will fade with time after I've come to my senses. I am going to miss the RP more than anything else, I think. :( But I'll be alright, eventually. I may even be able to play Simon soon.

Adrian gave me an idea for a fanfic. A Mortal Instruments Fanfic. I am going to kill him later. LOL. Or maybe I'll write it and allow it to heal me. It's about Simon as a Shadowhunter. And yes, probably might have some elements from the Tara verse... cause I am now going to have to re-configure that whole thing so that no part of what me and Val did is involved. :( But this could be fun for me. SOME of it may bleed through because I like the original concept I had before we started RPing it....ugh. Why does that have to hurt so much? I knew that that was going to be hardest part of letting her go.

Simon: Hey, we were here way before she was....

Me: I know...

Alec: Hey, I refuse to let you let her ruin this for you.

Me: I know you do. You've all been golden. Just like my friends in the physical plane, and I couldn't be luckier to have all of you. <3 Just...give me time, please?

Alec: don't worry, I will. Just...come back to us when you're ready?

Simon: She will. She has stories she wants to tell.::broad grin::Hey, can our band be really popular in your fanfic?

-dies- Yes, Simon. I will make sure you guys are mega famous, okay? I gotta do something in JOrdan's honor.

Trivia: My TRUE official anime was probably Sailor Moon or one of the Nick Jr. Shows that used to air in the early 90s. (The Noozles or The Little Koala.)

The End

Dec. 2nd, 2014 11:40 am
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So a lot of you here on Dreamwidth know what happened last night, but I still need to process it, and put it somewhere so I have a record of it. Things happened so quickly last night, and afterwards all I wanted was to bury myself in the Robas and pretend things hadn't happened. Which is a total Victoria tactic, but they do say that sometimes you put yourself in your characters...lol.

Anyway. So Valerie and I are no longer friends. That's the bare bones of it. I shared a very important story with her in trying to explain what's been causing me (mostly) to stay away from her. I don't know how many times I can type out taht story without crying again, so I'm not going to talk about that. I just... I can't. Maybe ask me in a day or two?

The nuts and bolts of it was that she was far too obsessed with RPing The Mortal Instruments with me, and right now, especially after last night, I can't have myself bombareded with that fandom. I love it dearly, and I will always love that fandom. But with the realization I made last night about the real reason I was able to get into it, I just can't right now. And when I tried to explain that to her, I was sure to tell her that it wasn't anything she, personally, was doing. Because if you definitely at least don't say that, she'd take it wrong.

It back fired on me. Big time. Instead of comforting me, and reassuring me that this pain associated with this fandom and Mama Kat would go away eventually, she made it all about her, and that's what I felt tipped the scale towards leaving. I finally realized that no matter WHAT my problems were, she was going to find some way to make them about her.

With the trial coming up, and the raw of emotion of the one year anniversary with Mama Kat...I Just don't need a friend who can turn anything into something about her. I need someone who will just listen, and respect that not everything is about her. It was the hardest damn thing I had to do telling her, and admitting to myself, even that I was having trouble enjoying The Mortal Instruments!!

But now the rush back to Nostalgia makes more sense. Too much shit changed over the year. First with Mama Kat passing so suddenly, then the end of The Mortal Instruments series itself....with Yu gi oh, my Robas and Victoria were exactly the same as I remembered them. Victoria was still always just wavering on insane, Christien was still fighting to keep her sane, and protect her, Espa and Jonathan were still being elder brothers... Kaiba was still being reluctant...you get me?

I just really needed to find them again, and be reminded what it was like NOT to have something remind me of anyone. Yu gi oh, at it's core, gave me some of my closest friends, and a lot of you, I still talk to. Maybe not nearly as often as I'd like anymore, but I try. But I was into it deep before I met most of you. Some of you I met strictly because of certain Yu gi oh characters. You know who you are. And Victoria definitely wouldn't be who she is without certain people. My only regret in this fandom is that in the FANFIC verse, I've lost contact with one of my favorite people, and now that I'm posting more Roba fics in a few months, I'd really like to let her see what I ended up doing with them. I took a simple concept she had, and just ran wtih it. (With her blessing, of course! She reviewed my first Roba fic, and helped me with some of the finer points of the younger Robas' personalities. So while I take credit for them, I never forget that she helped me. I just miss talking to her now that I've gotten that far.)

Anyway, I'm about to finish up the epilogue of the final Wyatt-centric fanfic for Yu gi oh, and then I probably will take a long break from writing to focus on RPGing. Just to get that sense of "Okay, yeah, I can still do this...with or without Valerie". Okay.

Trivia: Victoria shares a birthday with [personal profile] insaneladybug because her first appearance in fanfic was posted for Daisy on October 3rd. (It was her birthday present!)
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So today is the first day of December, and that means National Novel Writing Month has officially come to an end. I have mixed emotions about it, but I'll start with the good stuff. Like my stats for the month.

This year's NaNowriMo marks the first time I have ever gone over 60k words. My total for the entire month of November was 168,051 words. This is an amazing feat that I am not sure I will ever repeat. I may have to give myself a new goal next year. We shall see.

I finally defeated TJ. TJ is someone I have been fighting to leapfrog and surpass for the last 3 years of NaNoWriMo, as he and I appear to be the top writers in Maryland (that I have added and can see stats for). TJ's count was 10k less than mine at midnight. I want to thank CURLING for that. TJ loves writing, but he admitted to me last month that curling is his true love, and so he was gone an entire weekend, and I took full advantage of it. I was 10-11k words ahead of him the rest of the month.

Other stats: 3 and 3/4 Fanfics written. All of them leading up to the end of the Wyatt saga, and I'm so thankful. Wyatt Munroe is possibly one of the most ANNOYING villains I have ever created. He's twisted, and just downright cruel. I hate getting into his head because I KNOW what he's thinking, and I know why, and just like with Aaron Roba, it's for the wrong reasons!

Some good things that have come out of everything for Victoria though:

1. She's engaged and will become a permanent part of the Roba family (although Espa, Jon, and Christien argue that she was already a permanent fixture once she was full time taking care of Andrew and Ej)

2. She has a steady job, and an up and coming vocal career either on stage or in a recording studio (that last bit hasn't been revealed yet in the fic-verse.)

3. She'll finally be able to make peace with her past, and be able to let go of a lot of the bad stuff that's happened. And can now focus on her future life with Christien.

4. She's also learned to branch out and trust others outside of her normal circle of friends. She's befriended Griffon (who she didn't know was a Roba at the time of their meeting so I'm counting it), Teran Bishop, the older Robas, Cale and Spencer (even though her relationship with them had a setback because of their triplet brother Aaron), she's accepted Weevil and Rex as friends although she keeps them at arm's length. Her greatest suprise as a friend though has been Wade Munroe, Wyatt's twin.

All in all this year of NaNoWriMo has been a great comfort to me. It was nice to return to something so familiar to me in the wake of all the loss, and changes that have happened in the last few years. Its nice to know that no matter how much I lose, or how many things change, my Robas and Victoria will be there to make things right again.

I would also like to say that there were times in the fanfic that I really had fic imitating life. Having Marcia be let out of the hospital followed by the reaction from the family (Victoria in particular) was potent, and it was therapeutic for me considering all things going on this month.

NaNoWriMo 2014 Winner Badge!
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Yesterday went out with a hitch. I helped Mom quite a bit, and because of that, I actually now have a day where I have no work to do in the house. My brother on the other hand... he didn't even get up till a quarter to 2 yesterday. Got well enough to go to his friend's house last night, and then had the audacity to keep me awake off and on all night. Goddamn. He has to do chores between today and tomorrow. Sunday, I will not be here. Hopefully I will be seeing Big Hero 6 before my final write-in for the month.

I can't believe the month is over On Sunday! Wow. What the actual hell? The month just went by SO SO Fast. Like, BOOM! And now December is coming, which means I will definitely be back on to RPG tracks. <3 I have a whole thread that needs wrapping up. I have idea for other threads at GrandeLatte... (I keep wanting to say Green Tea Latte...the actual hell, self?).

I will also begin working once more on my Hunger Games RPG, Panem Prevails, which takes place in District 13. I will be doing all of this without help because I definitely do not want anyone else on board. Fractured Truth was a colossal failure, and I just don't know if I want to have anyone else involved this time.

Fanfiction is sitll growing strong, but believe it or not, I am feeling the urge to work on/start over on my Dystopian series, the Infinites. That is awesome! I haven't felt that kind of inspiration in months. This is good news for my original work load. Whoo! I am excited. I am very happy that my fanfiction is so much fun!!
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So.....I thought it might be time to do a full time line. Becuase I can imagine poeple are so confused about ages, and I'm a bit confused, too! So let me try this:

"Snake in the Grass"- Victoria was 5.

"Return to Me"- She was 12 about to turn 13. (Her birthday is October 3rd)

"Entrapment"- She as 14. (This is also where she started performing on stage with Phantom of the Opera with Christien)

"Into the Lion's Den- She's about to turn 15 when school starts. (though Christien mistakenly claims she is 15 already)

"Into the Fire" Takes place about a year later, making VIctoria sixteen.

"The Troubled Triplet" Victoria was seventeen. (So she was 17 when she got engaged)

"Her Fading Voice" She's still seventeen because it doesn't take place quite a year later yet.

"Down Once More" She has recently turned eighteen. And now is officially the age of consent.

I need to make something else kinda clear. Even though Victoria is legally an adult, she is still childlike at times due to her psychosis. Christien and the other Robas do the best they can take care of her.
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There my Hunger Games reference to celebrate the release of Mockingjay Part 1.

Now to the words: I wrote 5,622 for a complete total of 144,849. I was only 2k words shy of my goal of 7k for the day. My goal was originally to be at 7k before 8pm. That didn't happen because I forgot to calculate the two game shows I watch with Daddy C.

Yes, I actually got Daddy C into the Jeopardy! Tournament of Champions! I was ecstatic. We battled it out for four days. It was a glorious, fun event for the two of us while Mom was in Mississippi. (Can you believe I had to spell that out loud?!) Anyway!

Then of course, Girl Meets World was back on with a new episode. And it was pretty good. Much better than the fanfic I was attempting to write. LOL. I was very upset that Minkus didn't make an appearance, cause I am sure having him, and Topanga warring with their children.... that would've been comical in that plot. As it was, Lucas and Riley becoming closer friends towards the end? And Farkle realizing how ridiculous he was being... that was great too. I swear, I hope COrey Fogelmanis doesn't get any acting gigs between now, and the end of the series. I want him pursue his dreams, but I want him to wait until *after* Girl Meets World is over because I don't want to lose Farkle. You cannot replace someone like Farkle. It wouldn't work.

That wasn't the only thing that kept me from being as productive as I could be. I struggled to keep my ass in the seat while I wrote. I was bouncy and all over the place despite sinus problems.

The other reason may be that in the mid afternoon, I started writing for Jendra (Jonathan x Kendra) which, I thought was going to be a piece of cake from Jonathan's point of view. After all, I had written for him before, and I had no problems. However, trying to do it without having Christien, Victoria, or anyone else there proved to be a bit awkward, and maybe that was good for the two of them, as their relationship is so new, and was so unexpected. The cutest thing to happen during that whole scene was the admission of "I love you"s.

Now I've switched back to Espa's point of view, so I may do better and will finally get back to Christoria tomorrow, and some of Victoria's issues with Marcia. I can't wait. (WHy do I enjoy writing her trauma so much? Seriously? I'm a monster!) . Anyway, I'm exhausted, so I'm gonna head to bed.

Trivia: Kendra was the goalie for Jonathan's team's biggest rivals when they were younger
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Total written for the day: 4,512
Total Overall: 139,227

OMG. The last two nights of writing have just been crazy. Some of you heard about last night's love fest. Tonight was the exact opposite. Victoria revealed to Espa that she had once thought about killing herself, and only her love for the Robas and the Ishtars had stopped her. This was apparently at some point during her recovery from being abducted by Wyatt. Thankfully, she was in the hospital and of course wouldn't have been able to carry it out anyway.

Christien had a big problem with her not ever telling him about that, and he exploded on her and told her that he wouldn't have a marriage with her full of secrets. This prompted Victoria to reveal that she'd been thinking about things back in her world, and whether or not her friends there even missed her. She was also missing Johanna, and the nightmares she had were scattered between the Shadow Realm, the stage (with Wyatt), various locations with Aaron, and Marcia on occasion.

He wondered what she'd been telling her therapist that all of these things were still bothering her. (Some of, not all). He then reveals that he is terrified to death of them being married and what that would bring. Apparently, bridal catalogs make him nervous! LOL.

Victoria tells him that they have a couple of years, and that she wanted to do it on their eighth anniversary of performing Christine and The Phantom. Since the wedding is going to be Phantom of hte Opera themed. Haha. I can just see Christien's face when he finds out that Meghan got her way. LOL.

Tomorrow, they leave for Vegas, Victoria is reunited with Teran, Spencer, and Cale. She gets to see Marcia though only briefly.

Back in the carnival side, Jonathan invites Kendra come stay for the summer because his girlfriend wants to learn a bit more about the carnival lifestyle, and is taking summer voice lessons at the Conservatory to improve her range. (She's taken quite well to the stage, after a few side parts, and taking on Carlotta in the final performance of Phantom of the Opera that she and Victoria did together).

Tomorrow, writing aside, is the premiere of The Hunger Games: MOckingjay Part 1. <3 I will be seeing it Sunday, and so have been avoiding any spoilers about the movie. Yes I have read the book, and I know who dies when. I just don't want to hear how the movie differs yet. I want to find that out on my own.

It also marks the return of Girl Meets World with new episodes! YES! I am considering watching a marathon my tablet tomorrow as I write. I have missed Farkle so much!!

Trivia: The parts in Phantom of the Opera are as follows:

The Phantom- Christien Roba (understudy Griffon Roba)
Christine Daae- Victoria Ishtar (understudy Miranda Wilson)
Raoul DeChangy- Jonathan Roba (understudy Teran Bishop)
Carlotta- Kendra Underwood (understudy Erica Stanley)
Piangi- NPC
Meg Giry -Meghan Raptor
Firmin- NPC
Madame Giry- Ella Ford (at the Conservatory)

Most of the extra cast members were never named because it wasn't necessary. Just the principle cast. <3
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So I am not cross-posting this entry because someone who I know is very conservative will see it, and may possibly never read another one of my fanfics again. So. Tonight I started the fourth fic of NaNoWriMo. This fic will include some much needed closure for Victoria with Marcia Roba.

What I wasn't counting on it including was Victoria and Christien finally doing this full on make out session that got pretty damn hot and heavy. It bordered on soft porn, I would believe. O_O

I don't write scenes like this! Well, okay, no I did write one scene like that in the original draft of The Powers book #1, but this one actually went beyond even that!

But I did stick to my principles, and I probably will. Steamy make outs, yes. Sex before marriage? No. But I've held that belief for as long as i can remember. It had nothing to do with religious beliefs cause screw letting some old guy in a robe tell me what to believe in... but. (No offense to anyone on my list who are very religious. That's just how I feel).

I just really loved "watching" Christien and Victoria go that next step, and how careful and conscience of her Christien was. He was even hesitant to remove her bra after she said it was okay to do so. It was so sweet, and kind, and sensual...that's just really how their relationship is when it comes to the romance of it, though. On the surface, they're two best friends that fell completely in love with each other. But alone, there's this amazing passion between them, and it was incredible to finally bring that out. I've always wanted to, and never found a great opportunity to do so. Now I have, and it was random, but the Robas are KNOWN for being random.... this is just a more "mature" random, I guess.

Sensual Sweetness )

I am excited to see what happens next! This was just So much fun!

Trivia: Nora was named after Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
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Okay! So I really should take a day or two off, right? I am close to finishing up another fic. I'm excited, but really tired, too! I'm ecstatic that I'm able to get these fics off so good, but I'm not sure I'll be able to keep at it for another two weeks!

Today I wrote 7,176 words
My total is now 128,346

So my next fic will be taking place between the carnival and the Conservatory. It will be a direct sequel to the one I wrote just now. I will also have a heavy suplot between Jonathan and Kendra who wants to join the Conservatory instead of abiding Weevil's wishes to take community college courses. I really want to explore that relationship a bit since now Espa and Christien had gotten engaged. Oh, don't worry. Jon and Kendra haven't gone out long enough, but it would be neat to see some more of it.

It will also deal with Jonathan's taking over the duties Espa handled, and seeing just how much work his elder brother did. Which will be comical and stressful at the same time. I can't wiat to get into Jonathan's head so much. I've only written from his point of view a few times, but being as he is now the eldest there, it makes more sense for me use him as a POV.

In the midst of midterm exams, Victoria is going back and forth to Domino to confer with Meghan and Kendra about wedding plans. Haha. This should be fun! Weevil and Rex will probably face-palming a lot, while Kaiba starts doing the numbers. ROFL. Me and Kay have this ongoing thing about Kaiba writing blank checks, and just handing them out to the Robas/Victoria. ROFL. It would not surprise me bit if he ends up paying for SOME if not ALL of the wedding expenses. But if I know the Ishtars as well as I think I do, they're already setting money aside in Egypt for the occasion. There's no doubt in my mind that they will make a surprise appearance at the wedding. (I am still trying to figure out who Victoria would most want to give her away. I am leaning towards Marik, big time). If it isn't Marik, it'd be Espa. But I'm just on the fence about it. I've seen weddings where two or three people gave the bride away. In the case it would definitely be Rishid, Marik, and Espa. Hee... okay, I'm getting a headache trying to plan this out now. And as it is officially half past midnight... (and I know it says 11 something, but that's just when I started.

Trivia: Kendra Underwood's original incarnation had her dealing with Cerebral Palsy which I had. I subsequently decided that I didn't want to write a fictional version of the disability, so in the following fics that included her, there was no other mention of it.


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