faeriewings1781: (Espa Roba)
First and foremost, happy birthday to one of my favorite anime muses of all time, Espa Roba! I am sincerely hoping his brothers are giving him a break today... haha. And Tori and her Psychosis, too!

I didn't have anywhere else to put this that it wouldn't be seen by the wrong person, so I'm here to write a bout something that's quasi-bugging me. I've had a major crush on my friend Adrian for a long time. Sometimes when this happens and I know they're either not interested or are taken, I tend to automatically slap that "brother" label on them, making them off limits. Well. That's not working so well right now. I didn't realize it until last night, in the middle of talking to him, of all times. Boy did that conversation get weird! (I would *never* tell him. It would be too odd.)

I thought I'd want to talk to Lissa about it, but... I don't know if I can trust her not to say something to him. On the other hand, if I suddenly stop talking to him, he might know something's up. Of course, Adrian and I don't talk nearly as often as me and Lissa do. So maybe he won't notice if I suddenly don't reply... but goddamn it.

Earlier in the week I tried and decided to ax OkCupid. I'm getting nothing but the creepers, and none of them really seem to be able to read the profiles of the girls they contact. Mine clearly states that I am looking for friendship only. They all wanna meet up right away, and I'm not about to go down that road. They must not read the profiles in full for sure if they missed that I also wrote in BIG letters that I watch crime dramas such as SVU and Criminal Minds. I learn a lot about avoiding trouble from those shows. And there has been more than one episode on at least SVU about online crime. (and now CSI Cyber.. well, you get the picture.) So yeah, no, OKcupid and all dating sites are off the table. Back to the drawing board, or moping alone in my room while my brother Dan's adorkable best friend comes over and small talks with me, and gives me hugs, and my friend at BN continues to Friendzone me. (Not that dating him right now is the best idea until he can get his life together and get off the streets. He also smokes weed, and while I don't have a problem with that in general, I don't want to date someone who depends on it...so never mind him...) -sigh- And then there's the other guy who I'm keeping unnamed.

So relationships are back to the soul bond realm. Currently, I am actually...with Espa Roba. Don't judge. You don't know what he and his brothers have done for me over the years! Besides, he's 27, not the 15 year old he was when he and I were initially introduced on Yu gi Oh! He's helping try and tune back into my spiritual side. It's been an uphill battle with all of my medicine. He's familiar with this struggle becuase of his mom and Tori. So he's patient. Oh, and I should mention that this Espa isn't the same incarnation as my Fic!verse Espa. That Espa is still firmly committed to Nora, and they are still getting married. Technically, my boyfriend Espa DOES come from the anime, and not from my own fic!verse.

This will probably be my last entry for a bit because technically I am supposed to doing the Read-A-Thon and be lost in books. So that's what I'm going back to right now. I will talk to you guys soon! And if you have any useful advice, please leave it here? Thanks!

Date: 2015-04-01 10:02 pm (UTC)From: [personal profile] sarajayechan
sarajayechan: but there's nothing wrong with changing your look a little (Farkle)
Dating sites can be tricky. I have eHarmony bookmarked for when I'm ready to start looking, but who knows if that one's as good as the commercials say. Creeps happen anywhere. :( Sounds like you're happier in the soul bond realm, that's good.


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